dreams and sobs

dreams and sobs
stuck fast in my throat
as i watch what i want
fade away.

it seems to easy to reach
to grasp tightly
within my fingers
and yet
and yet
it's too far away.

how can i stand
to watch everyone else
achieve their dreams
so peacefully?

i debate
climbing into bed
and hiding beneath
the duvet for a few days
until the world
looks a little bit
brighter.

a phone call

it's me.
i'm calling from a payphone
at a diner
somewhere in the middle
of arizona.
i know i haven't called
in a really long time
but i've never had
much to say.
the roads are good
and the oil's been changed
and i haven't fallen asleep
at the wheel.
i think about you
and what could have been
should have been
might have been.
well my time is almost up
i don't have any more change
the operator keeps cutting through
so i don't have long at all.
i don't know where i'm going
i don't know when i'll get there
i guess all i know for sure
is that i still love you.

Close to Home

Close to home
I cannot stay
Close to home
Feeling so far away.

I can’t return
To the comforts I once found
Hidden within
Your anger.

Close to home
I cannot sail
Close to home
Feeling so far away.

I’ve found a new path
Having been lost
In the ocean
Thrust before me.

The memories
Those memories
I left behind.

I go on believing
That this time
Is real
I’m just lost
In a feeling
Never knowing
The reason
As a child
Never knowing.

The path
Is wide open
But it’s closed
To me.
I can’t go down it
Again.
I can’t go back
Hidden
In your anger.

Close to home
I cannot stay
I’m so close to home
But I won’t come closer
Your anger
Pushing me away
Keeping me away
Leaving me safe
Yet so lost
With the ocean
Hiding the paths
To anywhere
I think
I should
Be.